A RefUge in YoU

To escape reality,

I have sought refuge in you.

Thinking of you,

I have wanted to drown

in an ocean of happiness,

where every thought belongs only to you,

where everything begins with you

and ends with you.

I have wanted to lose myself

in the magic of your eyes,

through every passing day,

from morning until evening.

Frightened by the sound

of my own racing heart,

I have wanted to hold your hand.

In the deep darkness of the monsoon,

I have searched for you again and again,

yet like a flash of lightning,

you disappear

just when I find you.

On the days when my heart feels heavy,

I have wanted your embrace.

From reality to dreams,

like an unfinished riddle,

I have searched for you every time,

from question to answer.

At every step along the way,

 I wished to be yours.

 I don't really know

whether I should have fought for my love.

Should I be happy knowing

that she is happy now,

or should I hurt myself believing

that she would have been happier with me?

What will this world call me?

A brave man,

or a coward?